Wonder why i do that?

I have been married once and have had one relationship after that where i have lived together with my partner. Each time i find that i seem to get men that need 'fixing' in some way or another, usually they have some kind of psychological problem. Also in virtually all my other(important) relationships its been this way....I also seem to attract the kind of guy that can't go for me the whole way as it were. There is always something else that is more important to them than thier relationship with me and thier children. Why is this i wonder? There is obviously some kind of need in me to find someone to fix and to find someone who keeps his distance...After many years of searching through this i'm not sure what the answer is. Maybe it has something to do with my father dying when i was young, chosing someone to care for to make up for the care i had to miss. I have also in every relationship i've had been the one to finish it, maybe the same root, 'they will leave me at some stage (as my Dad did) so if i stay in control by finishing with them before they leave me i will have a lot less pain'...
I'm trying to fix this! So i don't get myself into another relationship where i am the carer, i have decided to change careers. I want to go into caring. In this way i can fulfil my need to care for needy and damaged people in a work enviroment instead of doing it in my relationships!!...
I'm not quite sure if it will work, but it's worth a try and i have always wanted to do that kind of job since volunteer work.
Until then, i aim to stay away from relationships until i get down to the core issues, i'm not bitter, maybe just a little bit afraid to make the same mistake again and VERY cautious ;o)

Illustration by Don Tywoniw.

The Lord's Prayer directly translated from Aramaic

This is a Translation of "Our Father" directly from Aramaic into English, the difference from the one now found in our bible is tremendous. I find it all encompassing, a beautiful prayer. I find the one in the bible beautiful too, just the translation from Aramaic is multidenominational and thus acceptable for all peoples...
Enjoy!

"O cosmic Birther of all radiance and vibration. Soften the ground of our being and carve out a space within us where your Presence can abide.
Fill us with your creativity so that we may be empowered to bear the fruit of your mission.
Let each of our actions bear fruit in accordance with our desire.
Endow us with the wisdom to produce and share what each being needs to grow and flourish.
Untie the tangled threads of destiny that bind us, as we release others from the entanglement of past mistakes.
Do not let us be seduced by that which would divert us from our true purpose, but illuminate the opportunities of the present moment.
For you are the ground and the fruitful vision, the birth, power and fulfillment, as all is gathered and made whole once again".

The Pentagram

What is the meaning associated with the pentagram? Well i will outline the basics without going into detail as it would take a long time to tell and if you really want toknow then you can go on a course somewhere!
I just want to let people know that there is nothing 'evil' about it, even the upside down pentagram, (unless used in the satanist movement with which Wicca has absolutely NO connections).
In Wicca the upside down pentagram is the symbol for the God, the male divine force as opposed to the Goddess, the female divine force.

As seen in the diagram, the topmost point of the pentagram is the symbol for spirit, our spirit and the connenction to the divine.
The right hand side point has the symbol water, which in the person represents the emotions. The lower right hand point represents fire, which in the person represents the passions and manifestational energy it is also a masculine 'upwards spiralling energy. The lower left hand point represents earth which in the person represents the ratio/conciousness and the solid manifestation of the earth plane and the connection thereof. Also earth has a feminine 'downwards' spiralling energy.
The higher left hand point is for air which in person represents the subconcious/astral and/or thought.
These interpretations are purely personal, i have meditated much on these symbols to find the correspondence within myself. Different people may experience different things here and associate differently and that is fine, as all paths are truly personal.
I truly believe in the power of the different elements, as all is reflected in all. All that is to be found in the macrocosm is also to be found in the microcosm, all elements are to be found without and within and have thier own special meanings and correspondences and this power can be drawn upon to aid ourselves and others for the greater good.
The pentagram has always been a powerful symbol, used for eons by many different races and cultures, from the Egyptians to the Christians!
But mainly for me at the moment, is symbolizes the path i am walking, who i am and whom i shall become, the balancing of self to find the whole and the path back to godliness, our total conscious connection to creation. (not that i expect i'll manage it in this lifetime, but there'no harm in trying ;o) haha)

Trees and thier energy.

Trees. What majestic, wonderful things they are. They live and breathe, eat and grow as we do, not in the same way of course, but they do these things non the less...
Have you ever tried to feel the energy of a tree? Or wondered why you feel relaxed and peaceful relaxing under one?
People may call me a 'tree hugger' well, i guess that's ok, but very often it is the tree that is hugging me!, hahaha. Everything in the entire universe is made up of energy, vibration. The movement of tiny particles whizzing round at super speeds, the electrons and neutrons which make up the entity. Stones, tables, cats, cars, trees everything is made up of the same basic thing, energy.
If you can still yourself, set your mind at rest, think nothing and just listen and feel, this is the state to be in if you wish to experience the energy of trees.
Just as we as humans have different personalities, trees have different vibrations. One tree can feel very different to another. Many years ago people were aware of these things, but nowadays in the hustle and bustle of out modern life we have forgotton these things and more often that not the people who know these things are thought odd or downright mad!
Before you judge, why not try stilling yourself and trying to feel the energies around you. Feel the stillness and cleanliness of the yew, or the warm motherly feeling that comes with the beech.
If more of us tried to get ourselves back into really experiencing nature, it would change our world for the better. All living things have a right to be here and can expand our knowledge of the univers if we only knew how to listen and dislodge our blinkers to see the world as it really is...

Photo's by Lunaura 30.03.06

Jenny and Molly

Here are a few pics of my dear animal friends Jenny and Molly.
Jenny is 11 years old, so a bit of an old lady now. She's an English Springer Spaniel and i've had her since she was a pup. Never a day sick in her life and is still full of beans. Only recently she has started to have a few 'funny turns' i am a wee bit worried about her and have an appointment at the vets soon...
Molly is just one year old and is my first ever cat. I always thought i was more of a 'doggie person' until i got her and now i am sure that she won't be my last one haha.
She is a wonderful cat, comes and gives me little kisses on the nose and hands whilst i'm stroking her, ahhh ;o)

Adam And Eve's Gift From God.

Thought that this was a real laugh, maybe you will too ;0) (sorry all you guys out there!)


God was just about done creating man, but he had two things left over in his bag and He couldn't quite decide how to split them between Adam and Eve. He thought He might just as well ask them.

He told them one of the things he had left was a thing-a-mabob that would allow the owner to pee while standing up. "It's a very handy thing," God told them, "and I was wondering if either one of you had a preference for it." Well, Adam jumped up and down and begged, "Oh, please give that to me! I'd love to be able to do that! It seems like just the sort of thing a man should have. Please! Pleeease! Give it to me!" On and on he went like an excited little boy. Eve just smiled and told God that if Adam really wanted it so badly, he could have it.

So God gave Adam the thing that allowed him to pee standing up. Adam was so excited he just started whizzing all over the place ----First on the side of a rock, then he wrote his name in the sand, and then he tried to see if he could hit a stump ten feet away -- laughing with delight all the while.


God and Eve watched him with amusement and then God said to Eve, "Well, I guess you're kind of stuck with the last thing I have left. "What's it called?" asked Eve.


"Brains," said God.

A Lesson In Living...

(I wrote this when i was 18, though i now believe this to be a channelled writing, through me, not of me as it were...)

A Lesson in Living.

Many people strive for peace of mind as they confuse themselves with the happenings and goings on of everyday life. Not many people gain this peace of mind in full, as they have not yet the understanding which tells them that they are on a course of self-fulfillment.
As yet they cannot understand that the hurdles they encounter are but tests to strengthen the spirit.
Eternal peace of mind, the hope of every human, whether they see this clearly or whether as yet still unfoolded to them, comes with self-recognition and understanding of self.
A fault in every human is that they often misinterpret this as self pity and find themselves bitter and unhappy.
The subtle difference is to cast awaythe confusion that comes with 'civilised' life and think about your inner self and the messages therein.
Indeed it is a painful journey to undertake, yet at the end there is a deeper understanding of yourselves and of others.
If and when you accomplish this, help others to gain the same peace of mind and love of life, however, do not force thisupon others, show it to them in thier own way and they will listen.
Ignorant people may scorn your help, but be patient with them, as solid as a bulwark and in event they will learn from you. Never let yourself become drained of energy, for such will some people endeavour to do.
Be understanding, love thy neighbour as thyself, niether be quick to judge others, for maybe then your truths will be ignored and tossed away.
Learn from others, for you will know a person of great truth, yet be not mislead, for this earth is full of misguided people who seek thier own paths to thier own ends.
These people will eventually learn and will understand that your lesson was indeed the truth.
Do not however become indulgent in grandiose ideas that others have the necessity to take what lessons you have learned and accpet them as irrifutable, for you also my friend may be misguided. Learn to listen to God througout your everyday life, in the wind, in the trees and the stars, for God is everything and he wants his people to be guided correctly and justly.
When your life is through, or near to its end, praise God in the highest for that marvellous gift called life; all questions which are at this time unanswerd will become clear to you, thier answers come hand in hand. Until this time live happily for the good of others, for what you give, also shall you recieve.

Bless you all.
Lunaura Harvest.

A candle burns for Grandma....

Dearest Grandma,
You are sorely missed...Just as a candle burns, so burns the love in my heart for you. You led a roller coaster of a life full of sadness, joy and unexpected twists and turns, but you always came out on top.
You lost your first baby when she was no more that 2 years of age, then you lost you second born, my Daddy, when he was 29...You never really got over that did you?. Then you lost Grandad, your true love, oh how you loved him...Still, you went on with your life, got stronger and found your laughter once again.
It is such a great loss for us left behind after your accident, you were fit as a fiddle, and your mind was clearer than a 25 year old even though you were n your 90's when you passed, how cruel then that a silly accident should take you from us...
But dearest Grandma, how i wish i could have seen the joy on your face when you were reunited with your lost children and Grandad, i know how much you missed them.
I love you Grandma and look forward to the day when we are reunited too.
All my love,
Lunaura...

Letting us know he's around....

It was the 18th of december, i was in mij bedroom making the bed up when a 'stress ball' (you know one of those squishy balls to squeeze and massage te relieve stress) literally jumped off the wardrobe next to me! I was puzzled, but assumed that it had just rolled off. I picked it up and put it back on top of the wardrobe. Two minutes later the ball plopped onto the floor again next to me.
Pffft, again i picked up the ball and this time i put it behind a book and some other stuff that was up there, so it couldn't roll off again. You see where this is going don't you?! ;o) Yep, the ball still managed to end up bouncing off the wardrobe and landing at my feet...
This time i realized that it could not be coincidence and asked "Dad, is that you?" I didn't get an answer, but had a feeling that there was something about that particular day that i couldn't remember, anyway, i went on with finishing what i was doing. The ball remained on top of the wardrobe...
Later that afternoon i got an excited phonecall from my sister in England...She was sitting at home on the sofa with her young baby on her knee. On the floor was a baby-gym (a frame with toys/bells/ rattles etc hanging off elastic where you lie your baby under to play), as my sister sat on the sofa, one of the elastics pulled itself to the ground and snapped up with a rattle! My sister looked in amazement and her husband, who was stood looking out of the window turned round expecting to see his baby playing with the gym, instead he and my sister saw the elastic waving around on its own as thier baby on my sisters knee giggled with delight!
My sister asked me if there was something special about the day and i told her that i had the same feeling, though couldn't remember anything, so we decided to call Mum and ask her.
Well, when my sister and i told her what we had experienced, she laughed and told us that it would have been her and Dad's wedding anniversary! So he's still letting us know that he's around :o))))

Arts and Crafts

Here my latest endeavour! It is my interpretation of The Goddess and my love and respect for her. I hope you enjoy her as much as i do.
Brightest Blessings,
Lunaura.
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Here's a couple of my handicraft things. I make wall plaques too, for in different rooms in the house (kitchen, nursery etc) buti don't have any foto's of the stuff at the moment, as i usually make them as gifts for people last minute!
When i have gotten around to making some more, i will post them here.
Also then a couple of my paintings/drawings here. The framed 'angel' picture i call 'Angel of love' as it was an inspired picture drawn when head over heels in love, i was on the telephone with the guy the whole time i drew it! It is done in pastels.
The pictures of the children are my older 2 kids and the guy with the 'biker' is my ex-hubby.

Brightest Blessings,
Lunaura.























































The painting of the cottage on the mountain i painted after just hearing that my Grandma Ruby had died, to keep my head together. (I painted 2 pictures). The one underneath, of the cottage on the mountain is a bit wishy washy, no depth, i was shocked and spaced out by her death and this is in the picture. The painting with the angry sky is of Achill Island in Southern Ireland, i painted this 2nd, you can see the emotion coming out, the angry, intense sky, tears falling from heaven in the form of rain...